Last year. This year though, I have to deal with an "on-the-verge-of-teenhood," "somewhat-full-of-angst, "almost-12" boy. So there's more conflict, wrestle for control than peace and quiet.
I'm swept by the turbulence if it all, trying to find my center more often than not. I'm realizing this sway of swirling emotions must be a reflection of what's going on in the head of my not-so-little boy at this stage he is in now.
I'm just grateful that after our shouting match (oh yes we do. Sigh), he shows every indication of understanding the points I've raised and obeys. It takes 10 minutes of quarreling why he had to study first before wifi-ing and why he had to wash the dishes too before he does the tasks anyway and so well afterwards.
Grateful as well that after all the drama, we would continue to talk and connect like before. Conscious parenting, or at least, the ever attempt at it, sure is helping though. I'm ill at ease with being not calm and at peace but I'm also acknowledging that this is all part of the process. The rythm sure is making my head spin. But we're making progress day by day #motheringateengeson #thispartofthejourneynow #uneasybutstillatpeace
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