Last night, we went to the citadel. As it was already dark, it is already close. I did not quite expect that. I knew there would be restaurants around it that are often frequented by locals. We came because a colleague invited us. Been very busy since I got here so I was not really able to go around yet and I know this week would be quite hectic as well. So I grabbed the chance. It had always been the hotel, office, nearby cafe and food shops for me since I got here. When we were driving towards, the first thing I noticed was the solid, "stone" roads leading to the citadel. Anyhow, what drew my attention next are the many ruins and totally destroyed buildings we're passing by. As if reading my mind our colleagues would say, "Nope, that was not because of the earthquake." Those were destroyed during the war. She had repeated that perhaps 3 to 4 times as we made our way up towards the citadel.
I was tired so I was feeling a bit detached. Or so I thought. Today, had to go out to get some food supplies and coffee. Since the museum is literally just around the corner, we decided to visit it. Afterwards, we had some ice cream and bought some water to take back to the hotel. As we were right opposite Sheraton where we stayed previously and where I left a pouch of daily-use essential oils, we decided to drop by and have our coffee there. We had to wait awhile only to be told they could not find it there. So anyhow, we went to buy some groceries and then went back to the hotel.
Caught up with Forest who then requested that I watch her sleep. I told her I'll sing her the song I usually sing to them when they were babies -- "The Promise." So I sang and watch her sleep. I had a senior moment and tried to remember who sang it. I knew it was from our old LPs of Mama's so I thought it must be Doris Day's. Anyway, so I googled to be certain and came across Chris Cornell's.
I knew his must be a different song altogether because I was pretty certain his would not be as ancient as the song I sang to the kids. I clicked on the MTV anyway and decided to watch. And then there it was. First scene, the "Battle of Aleppo." It was followed by the painful exodus of the people that was the result of it. The scenes leapt at me, the devastation; the trip to the dessert; to those crowded ships crossing the Mediterranean... Yes, those bright red life jackets that had become a symbol of the many lives -- young and old -- that were lost at sea in those times. I've forgotten that. Now, looking as the scenes came alive in front of me -- some even are those of the Somali crisis and some other crisis -- the floodgates just opened. "Detached" my @$$.
I guess seeing one emergency, one after another, one gets sort of "vaccinated" and becomes somewhat immune. To some extent, one is not as bothered by it anymore. It ceases to become a "passion," or a "cause" which was the reason why one signs up for this "profession," in the first place. Well at least in my case. It starts to become "just another day at work." But I guess I'm always "lucky" coz each and every time, I would be reminded -- To.Always.Care; that I "SHOULD" care.. Because, I am fully human. And perhaps, a long time ago, before I've started on this journey in this lifetime, I have decided that I always would.
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